Beeing Homesick

So far I've been managing not to get homesick. I kept myself busy, Networked with other dog-handlers and actually made friends with quite a few people. On the down-side we couldn't buy a second car yet. Due to the tax-season the cars are being sold for twice as much as they are worth and we were advised that we should wait until April if we can. So I am pretty much stuck at home 

However, with the loss of Zenzy I have lost a piece of home and I realized of how much I actually miss my family & home. Zenzy and Yukon are a piece of home that gave me security and safety. Now that she is gone, I have lost that kind of security. It made me realize how far I am actually away from home, that I can't just hop on a bus or train to visit them whenever I feel like it. Plus I am spending way too much time at home thinking. I can't stop second-guessing even though it doesn't make any sense since I can't change what happened. 

For now I am trying to get back into school, even if it is just online schoo, it'll help me staying busy. Another thing I have to start working on is the NY State Drivers License. I can't drive with the international license forever and another thirty days and I'll be considered a resident. The DMV said I have 90 days to establish residency and once I hit that mark it's 30 days from there and since I have a foreign license I have to go through the entire process. 

So yeah, the past days have been rough. Very rough with lots of tears. From now on I am trying to stay more positive, looking forward, making one step after another, getting adjusted to life in the US.